Chapter 1: Aunt姑姑

in my mother''s hands but in my aunt''s.

我从小就知道我有一个不可思议的姑姑，更重要的是她在我们家里备受尊敬，我们家管理权不是在我母亲手里，而是在姑姑手里。

When I was young, I didn''t understand why this was the case, nor did I ever wonder why my aunt''s position was so unique. I merely respected her like everyone else around me.

我小的时候并不明白这是为什么？也从来没有想过姑姑的地位为何这么特别？只是近朱者赤近墨者黑，也同周围人一样尊她敬她。

As a child, I didn''t enjoy embroidery and preferred reading and writing, practicing calligraphy, and learning martial arts.

我小的时候也不喜欢女红刺绣，反而喜欢读书写字，习文练武。

When my mother discovered my unconventional interests, she intentionally or unintentionally encouraged me to get closer to my aunt, even hinting that I should try to please her. I didn''t quite understand my mother''s intentions as a young child. However, I was chosen by my aunt during my childhood and eventually lived with her.

我的娘亲发现我的这些不入流，不随大众的性情时，她总是无意或者是有意让我多和这个姑姑亲近，甚至暗示我主动讨好姑姑。那个才几岁的我并不太明白母亲的想法，只是在孩童的时候我被姑姑挑中，后来也随着她一起生活。