Chapter 57: Unyielding

Why can''t I live in the darkness like others for the rest of my life? Like Walking Dead or drunk to their own grave?

为什么就不能像别人一样一辈子活在黑暗中，醉生梦死？行尸走肉？

Why should I yearn for sunshine and the rising sun?

为什么要向往阳光，向往朝阳？

Because I have seen good things and know what a good life should be like, I was even more precise about what is terrible.

因为我见到过好的，知道好的人生该是什么样的，所以我就更清楚的知道什么是差。

I''ve seen people with good characters, so I hate those with bad characters even more.

我见过人品好的，就更痛恨人品差的。

I had seen kind people before, so I wanted to avoid the black-hearted devil more.

我见过善良的人，就更想远离黑心肝的魔鬼。

I tried my best to get close to good people and avoid bad people. Even if there were many bad people around me, I yearned for the sunshine, rain, and dew in the human world, and I longed for spotless heaven.

我努力在向着好人靠近，我努力在远离坏人，哪怕我身边多是些牛鬼蛇神，可是我向往人间阳光雨露，更向往天堂的一尘不染。

Dreams, you are genuinely more challenging to reach than the highest heavens to me.

梦想呀，你于我难于上青天。

But I still tried my best to grab you. Even if I could only meet you in my dream and become the person I wanted to be in my dream, I was willing to do so.

可是我还是要拼了命般的抓住你，哪怕我只能在梦中和你相遇，在梦中成为我想成为的人，我也心甘情愿。

If I was destined to sink into the darkness and eventually be swallowed up, I would not give up the opportunity to hug a moment of twilight in my dream.

若我这一生注定在黑暗中沉沦，最终被黑暗所吞噬，我也不会放弃梦中可以拥抱黎明的机会。

Even if I could not distinguish dream from reality, I was unwilling to give up my determination to pursue the light.

哪怕我的这一生是梦非梦分不清，我也不愿意放弃追求光明的决心。

Unless one day I die. As long as I am not dead and still alive, I will coexist with the light, even if I can only have it in my dream!

除非有一天我死了，只要我不死，还活着的一天，那么我就要和光明共存，哪怕只能在梦中！

She can control her emotions well. This ability to endure silently is honed through accumulation over time.

她沉得住气，这份隐忍的本领是日积月累中锻炼出来的。