Chapter 3: Live a Happy Life

My parents were patriarchal and left me to start my own business at a young age, making a living by? singing and smiling? to support the family. At the same time, they gave my brother all of their love and resources.

我的父母重男轻女，把所有的爱和资源都给了我哥哥，而让我从小就不得不做生意，卖唱卖笑地赚钱养家糊口。

Later I left my hometown on my own to see the world, and I no longer looked back with hope on that spot as the knot in my heart became deeper and deeper.

后来.....我心中的结越来越深，再后来我就独自外出去闯荡江湖，对那个家不再回顾，也不再奢望。

Although they gave birth to me and raised me, I have paid them back by supporting our family all these years, so I am not ashamed to face any of them since I gave back more than I’ve ever been given.

他们虽然生我养我，但是这些年我养家糊口也足够回报他们了，只多不少，所以这一生面对他们我已无愧于心。

Why can''t I be myself? Why can''t I love myself? Is it because of my background? No, this is not my life, nor will it ever be my life, and the day I cut ties with my family is the day of my rebirth, a new start.

为何不能做自己？为何不敢爱自己？难道就因为自己的出身吗？不，这不是我的人生，也不可能成为我的人生，与他们断绝往来的那一天就是我的新生，一个与从前告别的新生。

When I arrived in the capital, at the foot of the emperor, there were many prosperous families, under the emperor''s feet, by the Imperial fortress. There were a lot of rich and noble people.

我来到了京城，天子脚下皇城根上，多的是王孙公子富贵人家。

I''m not a gambler, but there''s no better way for people like me, so I decided to bet my life on this. I am gambling with a bigger bet which is betting on the rest of my life.

我不是赌徒，但是我这样的人没有其他更好的路可以，所以我决定将这辈子赌上一赌，要赌就赌个大的，赌我自己的命。

Some people can rule the state and keep the people safe. I must be extremely wealthy. The capital is the most suitable place for me. It is the most dangerous place and also the area with the most opportunities. I am a woman with both ability and ambition; the capital is a stage with opportunities and challenges.

有人文能治国，武能安邦，而我要富可敌国。京城是最适合我的地方，这是最危险的地方，同时也是机遇最多之地，我是一个能力与野心并存的女人，而京城就是一个机遇和挑战并存的舞台。

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