Chapter 9: First Mee 一见

I got out of the boat and stood on the bow against the wind.

我出了画船，迎着风立于船头。

Some say I am a money grubber because I only care about money rather than people, no matter who it is. Someone says that I am refined and out of the ordinary, just like the goddess. I look down on the people in my industry, including myself.

有人说我掉进了钱袋子里，因为我只看钱而不认人，对谁都如此，有人说我清新脱俗不染凡尘，其实是我自己内心也看不起风尘中的男男女女，我自己也是嫌弃我自己的。

The so-called refined and out-of-ordinary are just the surface. If you''ve seen the essence beneath the surface, you will discover I am a contradiction girl.

所谓的清新脱俗不染凡尘那不过是表象，如果你透过表象看到本质就会发现实际上是我自己本身是一个矛盾体。

I was doing what I hated and becoming a person I disliked, got an identity I loathed the most.

我做着自己讨厌的事，成为了一个自己嫌弃的人，拥有一个自己非常厌弃的身份。

Life is such a contradiction, but now I have no way to solve this contradiction. We have to live on, although my daily life is in contradiction.

人生就是这么矛盾，奈何现在的我没有办法去破解这个矛盾，日子虽然在矛盾中度过，可是也总要过下去。

I sneaked out alone and enjoyed the wind on the river because I was tired of this kind of life. I like to be alone in such a quiet place. I can be myself only at times like this.

我厌倦了画船上灯红酒绿的买笑卖唱的画面，所以自己偷偷地一个人溜了出来，吹吹这河面上的风，透透气，我就喜欢一个人就这般安安静静地呆着，似乎只有在这个时候，我才真正找到了自我，我才真正是我自己。

The five lakes tour, the worry everywhere. Floating and sinking through the ages, and who asked the East?

落日五湖游，烟波处处愁。浮沉千古事，谁与问东流？

A plain skirt girl stood on the bow against the wind—the embroidered skirt flutters in the wind, just like a fairy coming down to earth.

一身素色的衣服，娉娉婷婷的身影立在船头的一处，微风拂过她的秀发，吹得她衣袂翻飞，如同那不食人间烟火的仙女下凡般。

The fairy has an alluring face and smiles comfortably, and her smile is as sweet as peach blossoms. She seems in a good mood, and her eyes are full of happiness.

仙女眉目如画，脸上带着舒适的笑意，她的笑容很甜美，似乎心情极好，眉梢眼角尽含笑。

What a fair lady.

好一个淑女窈窕!

She has the perfect body and the perfect height.

不高不矮不胖不瘦，身材恰当好处。